Heidi White, M. A., is a teacher, editor, podcaster, and author. She teaches Humanities at St. Hild School in Colorado Springs. She is the Managing Editor of FORMA Journal and a contributing author, blogger, and speaker at the CiRCE Institute. She is contributing author to 30 Poems to Memorize (Before It’s Too Late), published by the CiRCE Institute. She is a weekly contributor on fiction, poetry, and Shakespeare on the Close Reads Podcast Network. She serves on the Board of Directors of The Anselm Society as well as sitting on the Academic Advisory Board for the Classical Learning Test. She writes fiction, poetry, and essays, and she speaks about literature, education, and the Christian imagination. She lives in Black Forest, Colorado with her husband and children. 

Trying to get my heart back

by Matthew Clark

I went down into the cedar brake 

Down to where the earthquake 

Shook up all the old ways 

I used to use to navigate  

I went looking for a sign of life  

Somewhere past the edge of night 

Digging through the trash cans 

Trying to find a long lost friend 

CHORUS

Trying to get my heart back

Cause you can’t give away

Something you do not have 

Trying to get my heart back 

Now I woke up to the silver moon 

Thin enough to squeeze through 

Sneak in past the black dogs 

Climb into my bedroom 

Write upon the dark walls  

Something like a love song

It is beating on my windows  

So I’m thinking I should hold on 

©Matthew Clark 2022, Path in the Pines Music (ASCAP)